differentiated!

It was a starry night when me with my sister and cousins had our own generation bonding. We soak up ourselves in that chlorinated hot pool and relaxed. But instead of chilling out, questions had been bothering me when I saw myself around this crowd. They are my family, my very own-blood but then I feel different from them.

We grew up together, studying in the most prestigious school in Mindanao and we are all compensating to what’s the society is showing to us. We all knew that and we do practice all of that. But the thing is, I feel like worlds apart from them.

I hanged my hairdo like Rihanna. I stick up with the new trends like wearing skinny jeans. I do put make-up on my face just to look good around the people. I painted my nails with a bloody-red color just to change my image from Ms. Nice Girl to a more Bold City Girl. I wear short shorts and fabulous dresses even if there are no occasions at all just for them to think that I can also cope to the society’s calling! But at the end of the day, I wore those khaki porontong and loose white shirts, kept my hair with a tie, kept my bangs off and wear no make-up at all. Simply me! People may seem not to notice these things from me but my family does. They knew right from the start that the old Marmie they knew before was still the Marmie they knew now.

See? Even if you change yourself a hundred times, you’ll just go back to the old you. And I don’t see that from them. They are totally changed and destroyed by the social order. They utter gay lingos which I can’t understand and foul expressions which I can’t really swallow like, you know the-one-should-not-be-spoken. They’d totally changed… see? But my point here is that I hope they know what they’re doing and it could do forth good to everyone around them and of course, to their selves. Principle of utilitarianism!