My Day

Another year to live! Thank you Lord! Another year full of blessings and laughters! Thank you Father! Before September 14 ends, i was overwhelmed with the text messages i received every minute, calls left and right, flooding wall post greetings, unending singing birthday songs, endless smiles and greetings and hugs from school people.. wooohooooo!!!!! I thank God for everything. I could not ask for anything more. My heart is overflowing with joy and gladness.

Just this morning, while having my NCM class i was really amazed and laughing with my friends calling me on the backdoor singing a birthday song and clapping while our instructor was giving her lecture.. it was just so funny! And i really appreciate it. After my class, i received a call from friend Jinggoy singing again a birthday song and oppppsss... connection lost! (sorry friend. I really don't know what's wrong. Maybe it's really my phone). Then, pasiing through the corridors, i saw some friends and they were singing again a birthday song and everyone passing by was looking at us.. er. I hate that moment, it seems like those people wants me to treat them at the cafeteria (because i was going to the cafeteria). I went home and have my lunch then Lailyn greeted me with a song again... hahaha..

Going back to school, i saw a classmate acroos the street and he was shouting "HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIE! " and that was awful, everyone's staring at me and i was "uh, huh! Thank you?!" with a unidentified smile and the guards were smiling at me and said " Happy birthday!" hahaha.. i went to the library to return a book and i saw again a friend and he was waving his hands and said " Marm's Happy Birthday! Aha ta unya?" and everyone's eyes on me again. Ho my! And on my way to our room, i saw friends and greeted me a Happy Birthday. I feel so... hmmm.... glad but at the same time gauche. Yay! I appreciate that everyone greets me on my day but letting everyone on every corner of the world know that it's my birthday, i feel ill at ease! Unusual!

Although, this day keeps me reminding of the things i have to do like Individual case study, group case study, research, ncm, apartment- i was just thankfful that it hadn't affect me so much this time and it hadn't made me worry to much about this things. It seems like God wants me to enjoy my very day. I keep living the day happily nd i really had! I went home @ 8:30 and some old friends were already here in the apartment ready to jump on the foods. Like, they really just waited for me to come before they start eating. Well, that was nice of them! Waiting for the birthday celebrant.. hahaha. We shared stories and talk on life issues and i was really glad. Then my 2nd family came and they were supposed to surprise me but because of Kevin's subconscious mind was overcoming his conscious state, plan was busted! Hahaha... thank you Kev for writing the title of the song ( there's no lyrics yet according to the songwriter), Mommy Bear for the book, Ayana for coming, Marie for telling me honestly about the box and the chocolate (hahaha), Monet for bringing the cake ( i awe you a lot), Frans for running back and forth to buy and prepare all the foods.

Lastly, i want to thank this special person whom again, well i never thought he would, made me go blunt for an hour. Thank you!

This is my day!

    Once again it's my birthday today! Happy birthday!!!!! (clap clap clap) just got home from Mcdonald's Divisoria with Frans and still got 3 pages to study and a notebook... But then again, it's my birthday! Hooray!!! Yesterday, it just came to my thought that everytime that I get emotional everytime September comes. Hahaha.. dramatic? Whatever. It's just always think of the past memories and afraid to face a new challenge? Toinks.. NO. I DON'T WANT TO GET OLD! Goodness gracious. Everyone does but another thing pops to my cerebrum, I should be thankful and glad because I had passed all throughout the 18 years of trials and dillemas without breaking my head. That would sound terrific! I'm proud to say I'm 19 and I'm happy.

 

A God's message for me from facebook: On this day of your life, Marmie, we believe God wants you to know...
... that today is a big day for you.

Yes, today. Keep your eyes open for a message. It might come in a shape of a bird flying overhead, or a graffiti on a wall, or a phrase said by a passerby, or... Whatever shape it has, this message has been trying to reach you for years, and today is finally the day. Keep your senses open.

 

See? It is my day and i'm keeping my eyes open (still can't sleep) and my heart and hands fully open for your gifts and cash donations for my ultimate wish to have a MCDO PARTY! Hahaha... but seriously, i'm super duper glad with all my heart and want to thank those who greet in advance: Jesah M. And Kuya Rico (a new found cousin) and to those persons who greeted on the exact date: Frances- who was with me @ McDo and the first one to greet me ( actually our time is advance.. hahaha), Kerri- the second person who greet me. Thank you so much.. :D, Dave- aherm! Hahaha.. thank you!, and Diana- i thought it was just another quote. Hahahaha.. thank you yan.. :D, and to others, hmmmmm... thank you in advance.. :D

God's message for me....

On this day of your life, Marmie, we believe God wants you to know...
... that it's OK.

Just rest for a moment. It's OK. Yes, things are crazy, yes, the world is going nuts. Yet, deep underneath the stormy waves, there, in the core of your being, there is pure silence, pure love. And ... it's ... just ... OK.


>thank you Lord... i know everything will be fine because i know you're just there.

Can’t fight ths feeling anymore

This is a week full of emotions. They say i'm so naive and insensitive. I had been with this feeling for so long that it already affected my school life and badly to say, my FAITH. I think the last time i talk to my Bestfriend was last month. After that, evrything turned upside down and i feel so guilty about it. I know it was my fault and i am very very sorry about that. I'm bothered and people knew that but i just deny everything because.. i just don't want them to get involved with this thing. i'm so sorry. i'm trying to fix everything and put everything on their right places. I just hope after this everything will be back on their normal flow and me? Well, i just hope i will feel better.

Psychiatric nurse going psychotic

    After those Bunao days, i thought i'm gonna have a peace of mind and would live happily ever after but it hadn't end there. There is still NCM to face. Another one! You see, this subject is not so hard to understand. Actually, i had fun discussing about psychiatric patients and their disorders. Maybe because i can relate to the manifestations or it's just so funny. But, the management makes me go insane. It's hard and it's not that easy. Not easy to do (i think) and creates a confusion on me during quizzes or recitations. And that increases my anxiety level during Mondays, Tuesdays and Wednesdays. During that days, i don't have time to fix myself or don't even care how i look at the end of the day. Too bad, too frustrating and... to alarming!

Falling

    "Just woke up and lots of memories are popping on my mind. They were the times when I give advices to my friends that they should keep their faith in Christ. After 10 seconds, another memories are popping, they were the times when I need You Lord but feels so weak, "LACK OF FAITH?" and was ashamed of myself. And the last part that popped on my mind is, 'where am I going?' "

    A message that could sum up all that i feeling right now. I don't know where I am going. I admit I had my flaws and I would really admit that I lack faith. I feel ashamed because I only asked for your help when I'm in trouble. Lord, I'm sorry! L

a day to remember

Today is Thursday! i mean, 1 hour ago was Thursday and that day was full of unexpected surprises that it cause me to shrink-off my self. hahaha.. going to my 3-11 duty at CUMC Station 4, me and dutymate/good friend Kim went to the hospital riding the undeniably hurricane-like jeepney and too uch of it's speed cause us to pass over where we should supposedly to stop. the jeepney was so full and that was so embarrasing with all eyes on us... nyay! we we're in our uniform with all the hair well-kept in a bun and eventually turned into a massacre scary hairdo. grrrr... it was to be my first time to be so early and wore a complete make-up (because i heard Mr. **** would be there... hahaha) but everything was ruined up by that jeepney.

Another embarrasing moment during the time of our duty is that I was given a new patient and I received the Room # as 425. so after the endorsement, i hurriedly went to my patient's room to get the baseline vital signs so that i can prepare the IVTT meds given at 4pm. too much of my excitement, i forgot to recheck the room # and the patient's name. So i was going to room 425, knocked three times and open the doorknob. It was locked but after a few seconds a tall nice looking guy opened the door and... I introduce my name and said the most cliche line "is it okay with you sir if Mr. ********** will have a student nurse to take care of him?" and he said "awh, sori Miss, this is not Mr. *********" wrong room Goodness! i was really embarrased that i want to hide under the patient's bed and would never go out... it was okay sana if i had wore my face mask so he wouldn't recognize me but i forgot to... and everytime he passess by on the nurse's sation, he would smile but.. that was so embarrasing!!!